when divorce occurs

I never thought that there will be a stepmother, there will be a half-sister, there will be new rules.
I never wanted, because I still have my real mom.
My parents' divorce just became my broken heart alone.
but I can only keep silent.
I have separated from my mother and my brother.
I had to adjust to my new family.

though I call her mama, but the love she gave insincere.
Sometimes I pray, sometimes I get angry.
I do not know what God wanted for the suffering that I experienced.

why I can not like other children who have families without lies?

I guess god does not hear my prayer
because I'm experiencing more severe

but God strengthen me, God still keep me
and taught me to be patient
I feel it when I feel empty that can be filled me with joy is the love of jesus to me

he brought me to church, he was surrounded by good spiritual friends

and I never thought in a god church event introduced me to a child who also experienced the same thing with me even more severe than that I experienced

God taught me to stay in care if I was also suffering

god teaches great love in the time I was still 12 years old